so far are;
A WONDERFUL anonymous man.
ONNO
MARTIJN & MONTSE
ERIK
TAMMY DAWN & FAMILY
LYDIA
PAT & FAMILY
TANG
Thank-you to all of you for your help, belief and love, not to mention sexy nakedness. 
Big love and be very bad!!!! XXX
Awareness is the honesty to freedom…
Thank-you to every one who offer their support. Love you all XXX
Bless “Lucky B” a beautiful dog in our family that needed to be euthanised on Tuesday morning.
He was a gorgeous friend and made many a smile over the years since February 1993. Love you Lux. No more pain now. xxx
I`m pretty thoughtful tonight.
I have had some time sitting at the computer (yeah I do that occasionally ) talking and communicating with the world, sitting with my children, Gary & feeding Zeth before he goes off to sleep for 2-3 hours and having many thoughts and feelings running through this mind of mine…
I am extremely lucky… Again I say for my own knowledge, and yours… I have a wonderful husband, beautiful children, wonderful parents, a fortunate life, pretty good health (although could be much better in a few ways, I am still far better off than many), good family and friends & to top it all off I have the chance and opportunity to follow and submerge myself in creating music, an extension of the true me. Without music in my life… I am merely a shadow of sound.
I have met many a fellow person who has been less than honest, all for themselves and full of excrement (the smelliest kind!), aiding my lack of faith in humanity, even myself… feeling stupid that I ever `believed` in them, their lies and their lack of care for anyone`s feelings (let alone mine) as they steam fully ahead in the lonely road they travel upon. Man it was murky…
With all the faith and lack of it, with all the laughs and none, all the tears and the well short and dry, with every thought & more & more, all the many faults too heavy to carry and the beauty weightless and free, with all of me, bare, naked, to the bone, even just the shreds of a someone who was given life, grew in love and stooped within the hatred of oneself, I am here, still, lucky and abundant.
With all my faults… it`s wonderful to be me (I don`t believe I have ever said this before… I have been in a tug-a-war relationship with myself for many years). I have so much to be thankful for, I just need to look and `feel` around me.
I have felt pretty `broken` in my life but I am blessed with some very special pieces that hold me together…
Where`s the tissues… Love you all. XXX
